Last night I came to thinking
Last night I came to thinking...
I am pretty content with my life. I have a good job (although I work awfully long hours), but I'm not afraid to loose it. I would probably rather feel relieved.
I was thinking - what I'm planning to do, is it really what I want to do with my life? Will I be happy, when I finally drop this job and move somewhere far? Will this satisfy me?
All I know for now, is what I don't want.
I don't wanna regret, that I didn't try.
What's my alternative? Stay in my current job (or work this way for some more months). That way I'd earn enough money. I could get mortgage for next 20 to 40 years and buy apartment in Warsaw. And then I'd be affraid to loose job.
That's really liberating thought, when I'm not afraid to lose job. Well, it makes me care less. The stress is not mine. I leave workplace at 5 p.m. and all the problems are not there anymore. Of course, next day I have to come back and look at those ugly mugs again for the next eight hours, an this sometimes makes me sick. For the next week, waiting only for the weekend...